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UNDER CONSTRUCTION... Come back soon!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Sun, 29 Jan 2012 14:52:00 +0000

I am revamping my website!! Please check back soon for new and improved!!!! Thank you!

My Calendar!

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Sun, 22 Jan 2012 05:36:00 +0000

I'm SUPER excited!! My calendar is booked now for the rest of January. I will be busy every day. I LOVE having a busy but FUN schedule ahead of me!

The weekend, so far has been AMAZING! I'm so HAPPY to be alive and so BLESSED! I have so much gratitude inside of me. First of all I'm grateful for my husband, Marc. He brings so much joy and happiness into my life plus he keeps me on my toes!

I'm enjoying my morning meditations and my ritual that I've been keeping up with every morning. It's extremely relaxing and gives me so much energy. I've been writing daily in my gratitude journal. I've been proactive on completing my daily affirmations.

Next week is Genius Bootcamp and I'm ever so EXCITED!! Two full days filled with motivational, inspiring material.

Faith ~ Hope ~ Love

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Blogging - Yes, it's been a while!

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 01:31:00 +0000

So it's been a few weeks since I've made time for blogging. I don't have any excuses. Pure laziness.

I've been reading quite a bit on my Kindle Touch that my husband purchased for me for Christmas. I am loving it!

I have a few photos to share from the holidays.

Grandpa & Florence

Chazen

Tommy, Chazen and Megan

These are some photos from Christmas Day. We had Tommy, Megan and Chazen over for Christmas Day and they brought Chazen's gifts with them so he could open them here.

Melanie, Jason and Jacob stopped in for two days before heading to Arizona. It was really nice having them here, although the time was short.

Melanie, me and Jacob

Just foolin' around!

Group shot!

Jason, Melanie, Jacob and Holly (Mel's BFF)

On Christmas eve day, Erin, Derrick and their children stopped by briefly.

Erin, Owen, Hayden, Halle & Me

Grandma & Owen

This is a video of Halle, Hayden and Owen watching Santa talking to them on the computer!!

Christmas was quite different this year. We didn't put out a Christmas tree but I did decorate around the house. Income wise has been scarce for a while now but we always manage to pull through with our faith in tact.

Now on an uplifting note, I have been self evaluating and have come to terms with many things about myself and have decided to make some HUGE changes in my life. I feel like I've made some deep progress since December 28th, 2011. That was the day that I made my decision on my life and my future. I wanted my life to be HAPPY and MEANINGFUL and SELF-INSPIRING and with the help of some very dear angels things are beginning to turn around for me and I'm LOVING every moment of it. I'm using new tools for my beautiful path that I'm creating. I will share a few of them here.

I've been writing a lot! I have a notebook that I write in every single day. On the "even" days I write three things about me or my life that are POSITIVE. Afterwords I read them aloud. This has been very healing for me. On the "odd" days I write things that are bothering me and/or NEGATIVE. I read them aloud and then I have a ritual that I use and that is going out on my back porch with my candle lighter and the ripped page from the "odd" day and set it in the wheel barrel to set it on FIRE! I stand there over it and watch it burn till there is nothing left. I'm moving forward!!!

I can honestly say that my healing process is truly affecting my attitude towards life. My calendar is filling up. I'm attending a "Genius Bootcamp" next week for two full days. I have a phone conference next Monday with a Life Coach that I'm really looking forward to.

I'm learning about GENSHAI which means the following "never to treat others, or yourself, in a way to make them feel small" in other words, holding all people in their excellence, including yourself.

I am going to write down in my planner the days that I will be blogging so as to 'remind' myself and keep everything up to date.

With all of that, I just have to say one thing - THANK YOU!!

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Letting Go ~

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Tue, 03 Jan 2012 02:13:00 +0000

One of the hardest parts of the healing journey is learning to let go of relationships that we hold so much hope for.

I'd spent a lifetime struggling to do things "right enough" to finally be "good enough" that others would accept me...that they would finally love me for who I was. That I would have a place to belong. A place where I felt wanted. A family...THE family or friends - that I'd never had but always dreamed of and hoped for.

I just knew that there was something that I'd done to cause them to not love or want me. If I was prettier. Smarter. When I bought my first house...got a better job. Bought them the right gift, sent them the best card.

I held onto the hope that if I could just try harder that things would change.

And sometimes they did.

For a minute.

Learning to let go of the hope and wish that I could somehow change myself that others would love or accept me was almost as hard as actually letting those relationships go. I wanted desperately to "make things work" and it was only when I let this idea go that things began to work - for me.

You.are.enough.

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Happy 2012!!

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Sun, 01 Jan 2012 08:06:00 +0000

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God Be With You Till We Meet Again...

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Sat, 31 Dec 2011 20:10:00 +0000

Grandpa Reding ... You will be missed.

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New Year 2012 Resolutions

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Thu, 29 Dec 2011 05:05:00 +0000

1. Be Impeccable With Your Word
Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.

2. Don't Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering.

3. Don't Make Assumptions
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.

4. Always Do Your Best
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse and regret.

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My Shield of Armor

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Wed, 28 Dec 2011 16:57:00 +0000

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A Letter of Thanks ... To Me

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Wed, 28 Dec 2011 16:55:00 +0000

I'm writing a thank you note to myself. This is definitely not an easy task for me and has caused me a great deal of crying but as I've been writing this I thanked myself for being a supportive, loving and giving mother and wife. I thank myself for being brave enough to stay around for a while and meanwhile make many good changes for not only myself but to be a better person, to love and be loved without any conditions attached. I would like to thank myself for being honest and dedicated and for having a generous heart. I would also like to thank myself for having a contagious laugh that will almost immediately make those around me at least smile if not just laugh due to my laughter. I'd like to thank myself for giving my all and doing everything possible to make my sons life livable in a manner that he feels independent and for putting myself out there for not only his benefit but to gain sanity for myself along the way. I would like to thank myself for also having courage to speak my mind, even if that means I make mistakes along the way and fail. I may fail over and over again but I'm thankful that I'm still here to improve and correct those failures and not caring what other people think of me, never needing any type of validation from anyone. Now allowing others to seek out who I am not, always staying on a path to find out who I am. Continuously working on forgiving and to be able to know and change those things which do not benefit me. I'm thankful that I'm continuously working on being positive and having a positive outlook on life and to really try my best at uplifting others, always striving for that ambition to make an impact on others in a good and positive way. I'm thankful for not allowing others to impact my mood or bring me down. I love being a good friend. I have only just begun on my gratitude and being thankful but I have every intention on working on this each and every day. I truly want to get to this point of being able to LOVE myself and being able to embrace who I really am. I want this for everyone!

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Merry Christmas!

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Thu, 22 Dec 2011 17:29:00 +0000

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Merry Christmas .. I Hope

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Fri, 16 Dec 2011 05:32:00 +0000

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The Twilight Saga

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Mon, 21 Nov 2011 16:04:00 +0000

Twilight

Isabella "Bella" Swan moves from sunny Phoenix, Arizona to rainy Forks, Washington to live with her father, Charlie, while her mother, Renée, travels with her new husband, Phil Dwyer, a minor league baseball player. Bella attracts much attention at her new school and is quickly befriended by several students. Much to her dismay, several boys compete for shy Bella's attention.

When Bella is seated next to Edward Cullen in class on her first day of school, Edward seems utterly repulsed by her. He disappears for a few days, but warms up to Bella upon his return; their newfound relationship reaches a climax when Bella is nearly run over by a fellow classmate's van in the school parking lot. Edward saves her life when he instantaneously appears next to her and stops the van with his bare hands.

Bella becomes determined to find out how Edward saved her life, and constantly pesters him with questions. After a family friend, Jacob Black, tells her the local tribal legends, Bella concludes that Edward and his family are vampires who drink animal blood rather than human. Edward confesses that he initially avoided Bella because the scent of her blood was too desirable to him. Over time, Edward and Bella fall in love.

Their relationship is disturbed when another vampire coven arrives in Forks. James, a tracker vampire who is intrigued by the Cullens' relationship with a human, wants to hunt Bella for sport. The Cullens attempt to distract the tracker by splitting up Bella and Edward, and Bella is sent to hide in a hotel in Phoenix. There, Bella receives a phone call from James, who claims to be holding her mother captive. When Bella surrenders herself, James attacks her. Before James can kill her, Edward, along with the other Cullens, rescues her and defeats James. Once they realize that James has bitten Bella's hand, Edward successfully sucks the poison from her bloodstream and prevents her from becoming a vampire, after which she is brought to a hospital.

Upon returning to Forks, Bella and Edward attend their school prom and Bella expresses her desire to become a vampire, but Edward refuses.

New Moon

On Isabella "Bella" Swan's 18th birthday, Edward Cullen, the vampire she loves, and his family throw her a birthday party. While unwrapping a gift, she gets a paper cut, which causes Edward's adopted brother, Jasper, to be overwhelmed by her blood's scent and attempt to kill Bella. To protect her, Edward tells Bella that he does not love her and the Cullens move away from Forks. This leaves Bella very heartbroken and depressed.

In the months that follow, Bella learns that thrill-seeking activities, such as motorcycle riding, allow her to "hear" Edward's voice in her head. She also seeks comfort in her deepening friendship with Jacob Black, a cheerful companion who eases her pain over losing Edward. Bella later discovers that Jacob and other tribe members are werewolves. Jacob and his pack protect Bella from the vampire Laurent and also Victoria, who seeks revenge for her dead mate, James, whom the Cullens killed in Twilight.

Meanwhile, a series of miscommunications leads Edward to believe that Bella has killed herself. Distraught over her supposed suicide, Edward flees to Volterra, Italy to provoke the Volturi, vampire royalty who are capable of killing him. Alice and Bella rush to Italy to save Edward, arriving just in time to stop him. Before leaving Italy, the Volturi tell Edward that Bella, a human who knows that vampires exist, must either be killed or transformed into a vampire. When they return to Forks, Edward tells Bella that he has always loved her and only left Forks to protect her. She forgives him, and the Cullens vote in favor of Bella being transformed into a vampire, to Edward's dismay. However, Jacob reminds Edward about an important piece in the treaty; if the Cullens bite a human, the treaty is over.

Eclipse

Riley Biers is attacked and bitten by Victoria, in order to begin creating an army of newborns set to destroy Bella Swan. Back in Forks, Edward Cullen and Bella discuss the complications of becoming an immortal vampire. At 18 years old, one year older than the age Edward was when he became a vampire, Bella expresses her aversion to the idea of marrying so young, though Edward refuses to turn her until they are married and she's had various human experiences she would otherwise miss. While Charlie Swan investigates the disappearance of Riley Biers, Edward suspects his disappearance was caused by the newborn vampires. Furthering his suspicions is the intrusion of Riley into Bella's room.

Although Edward fears for her safety, Bella insists that Jacob Black and the rest of the werewolf pack would never harm her, but Edward is still not convinced. Bella goes to La Push to see Jacob, and returns home unharmed. During one of her visits, Jacob confesses that he is in love with Bella, and forcefully kisses her. Mad, she punches him and breaks her hand, and Edward later threatens to break Jacob's jaw. Bella even revokes the invitations of Jacob and his pack members to her graduation party, but when Jacob apologizes for his behavior, she forgives him.

Meanwhile, Alice sees a vision that the newborn army is attacking Forks led by Riley Biers. Jacob, accompanied by Quil and Embry overhear this, which leads to an alliance between the Cullens and Wolf pack. Later, the Cullens and the wolves agree to a meeting place and time to train and discuss strategy. During the training Jasper explains to Bella that he was created by a vampire named Maria to control a newborn army. He hated his original existence and upon meeting Alice, joined the Cullens with her.

Bella sees the true bond between a mated vampire pair and begins to understand Jasper better. Despite her reluctance to marry, Bella realizes that spending eternity with Edward is more important to her than anything else and agrees to marry him. Edward and Bella camp up in the mountains to hide Bella from the bloodthirsty newborns. During the night, Bella overhears a conversation between Edward and Jacob, in which they temporarily put aside their hatred towards each other.

In the morning, Jacob overhears Edward and Bella discussing their engagement and becomes very upset. Before he can run off to get himself killed in the fight with the newborns, Bella desperately asks him to kiss her, and she realizes that she has fallen in love with him. Edward finds out about the kiss but is not angry, as Bella says she loves him more than Jacob.

Victoria eventually finds Bella's hiding spot, and Edward kills her while Seth kills her partner Riley. The Cullens and the Quileute wolves, meanwhile, destroy her "army", though Jacob is injured saving Leah Clearwater from a newborn. Several members of the Volturi arrive to deal with the newborn army. They also see that the Cullens are guarding the newborn, Bree Tanner, who had refused to fight and surrendered to Carlisle. Jane tortures Bree to get information, then instructs Felix to kill her, despite the Cullens' efforts to spare her. When Jane notes that Caius will find it interesting that Bella is still human, Bella informs her that the date for her transformation has been set. Bella visits the injured Jacob to tell him that even though she is in love with him, she has chosen to be with Edward. Saddened by her choice, Jacob reluctantly agrees to stop trying to come between her and Edward.

Bella and Edward go to their meadow, where she tells him she has decided to do things his way: get married, make love, then be transformed into a vampire. She also explains that she never has been normal and never will be; she's felt out of place her entire life, but when she is in Edward's world she feels stronger and complete. At the end of the story they then decide they need to tell Charlie about their engagement.

Breaking Dawn (Part One)

Edward Cullen and Bella Swan are about to marry, and invite Edward's family, which includes Carlisle Cullen, Esme Cullen, Alice Cullen, Emmett Cullen, Rosalie Hale and Jasper Hale; as well as Bella's parents, Charlie Swan and Renée Dwyer, to the ceremony. Bella's friend, Jacob Black, however, becomes devastated upon learning about the wedding and leaves for Canada, returning after the ceremony to congratulate Bella and Edward.

The couple spends their honeymoon at a private island in Brazil, where they have sex for the first time. Due to his passionate lovemaking, Edward inadvertently hurts Bella. Horrified by what he has done, he tells Bella they will not have sex anymore. The newlyweds spend their honeymoon exploring the island and one night, Bella persuades Edward to make love to her again and he finally gives in. The following day, Bella realizes that she's pregnant, and is rushed back to Forks by Edward, where Carlisle confirms that she's pregnant and that the fetus is developing at an accelerated rate because it is a vampire, and will kill Bella. However, she develops maternal feelings towards it and refuses to have an abortion. Bella enlists the help of Rosalie, who has always wanted to have a baby, to protect her and her unborn baby.

Upon learning of Bella's pregnancy, Sam Uley, the alpha male of the werewolf pack, decides to attack the Cullens' house and kill Bella before she can give birth. Jacob stands against him and vows to protect Bella alongside two other werewolves, siblings Seth and Leah Clearwater. They guard the house from the werewolves lurking in the woods while the Cullens give Bella blood to quench the fetus's thirst, resulting from it already being half-vampire. When Bella goes into labor, her spine is broken by a very strong kick, and Edward is forced to open her abdomen with his teeth to deliver the baby. Edward confirms that it is a girl, whom Bella names "Renesmee" and passes out. The werewolves attack, but Edward stops the battle by revealing that Jacob has imprinted on the baby, meaning he'll love Renesmee forever, and the werewolf's code dictates the imprinted one of a member of the pack cannot be harmed.

The Cullens and the werewolves make a truce, and Edward injects Bella with his venom (straight into her heart) in a desperate attempt to save her and turn her into a vampire. The film ends with a pale Bella opening her eyes to reveal they are blood red, that of a newborn vampire's eyes. Though Bella remains herself as a vampire, which is a re-assurance to the whole Cullen family and Jacob, not to mention her newborn half-vampire half-human baby daughter Renesmee.

In a post-credits scene, it is revealed that the Volturi vampire clan, led by Aro, has been informed of Bella and Edward's wedding, Bella's transformation into a vampire and Renesmee's birth. Marcus states that they have no further business with the Cullens. However, Aro disagrees saying the Cullens still have something he wants.

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A Few Items of Interest ...

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Wed, 09 Nov 2011 21:12:00 +0000

So it's beginning to look like Mitchel will be moving over to Meadowview Apartments here in the next week or so. It's actually on Wasatch Health Property (Lakeview) and he will have his group, medications and a 24 hour nurse on call at all times so this will definitely be more convenient for him. Him and I went to take a peek at the apartment and it's perfect for him. He will be the only one living in it - so no roommate issues. Thank goodness. Cable and Utilities come with so that will be nice, too. There is a huge TV/Rec Room in the same building that Mitchel's apartment is in with an enormous big screen television.

It's definitely been nice having The Disability Law Center advocating during this process for Mitchel.

I went to see Dr. Holmes yesterday. He believes I'm in the beginning phases of Rheumatoid Arthritis. Other than that, just received a prescription for a prescription strength anti-inflammatory and a pill form for my 'hormone' instead of the $100 / month patch I can now just pay $4 / month for 60 pills. Sounded like an amazing deal to me.

I'm working on a few projects. I've began writing my book. I've been considering a weight loss goal. I'm still trying to figure out which route I want to take with that goal. I know it's needed desperately.

It's definitely hard to believe that it is all ready November 2011. A lot of things have taken place this past year. Mostly health related. I had the hysterectomy the last part of July. I'm fully recovered from it and I do feel better in that sense. I had the breast cancer scare last month - biopsy came back benign so I'm very thrilled about that. Now there is a marker inside my left breast where the significant lump is so they won't have to go back in and re-biopsy it again. I do have to go in every three months now for ultrasounds but I can deal with that. Now of course, the Rheumatoid Arthritis is causing me a great deal of pain. I am really hoping that this medication will do the job and help out with the joint pain and back pain, especially. I really do not like having health issues, and then of course mental health issues as well .. but I have a very good therapist now and an amazing group that she is teaching. Keeping myself involved with NAMI, writing, putting together gift baskets for the holiday season ... It does help.

That's about all I have for now.

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November 2nd, 2011 Daily Affirmation

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Thu, 03 Nov 2011 01:59:00 +0000

--The glory of nature. Sunrise and sunsets. Clouds and blue skies. Raindrops and rainbows. Ocean waves and soothing streams. Birds, flowers, wildlife --

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November 1st, 2011 ~ Affirmation

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Wed, 02 Nov 2011 03:31:00 +0000

-- I look forward to each day. I am grateful for each moment.--

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Every moment you have a choice, regardless of what has happened before...

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Wed, 02 Nov 2011 02:53:00 +0000

Everything you know is based on what has already happened in your life. And yet, your only influence right now is over things that have not yet happened. The things that have already happened have gotten you to where you are right now. What you need to be concerned with, however, is where to go from here.

Because you're so intimately familiar with your own past, it may seem that you have no choice but to continue moving in the same direction as before. But that is not true. Your future does not equal your past. Right now, there are an infinite number of paths which you can take. The one you're currently on is only one of them. Any of the rest are available to you.

If you're completely satisfied with where you're going, then by all means keep on going that way. But there is no reason in the world why you have to keep following that same path if it is not bringing you full and lasting fulfillment.

Every moment you have a choice, regardless of what has happened before. Choose right now to move forward, positively and confidently into your incredible future.

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Trip to San Diego...

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Tue, 25 Oct 2011 06:30:00 +0000

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Day 3: Random Acts of Kindness

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Mon, 10 Oct 2011 01:16:00 +0000

Day 3: Random Acts of Kindness - Made an authentic enchilada dinner for my son, went and picked him up and brought him over to my house for dinner. ♥

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Day 2: Random Acts of Kindness

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Sun, 09 Oct 2011 01:13:00 +0000

Day 2: Random Acts of Kindness - Sent a Hallmark greeting to my beautiful and most supportive friend, Louise Partner Harrison ♥ Thank you so much for being here for me always, it means the world to me.

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Random Acts of Kindness - Day One

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Sat, 08 Oct 2011 01:00:00 +0000

I posted a link on my Facebook Wall that belongs to my dear friend, Jana's online business called Heartstrings Creations

I hope that she receives more business ~ She creates the cutest baby diaper wreaths!

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25 Days of Random Acts of Kindness

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Fri, 07 Oct 2011 03:42:00 +0000

This is the start of my 25 Days of Random Acts of Kindness.I have been depressed with lots of anxiety on and off for many years.

For those who know me well I have never really been an upbeat, energetic or an optimistic person.But I am very open, honest and loving person. I have no problems telling the world that I am feeling bad about a few life situations.I know that I have a choice in this matter.

And although I cannot snap my fingers and make it all better, I can start to take steps to climb up. I am taking what I am experiencing and helping others that are in far greater need than I am at this time.

My idea was born a few days ago when I went to see the movie 50/50. I was completely inspired by this based on a true story movie.

25 ACTS will be taking place for the next 25 days beginning tomorrow, Friday, October 7th, 2011. Many of these ACTS can be done at any time by anybody.

I will be participating every day in a new activity that I post Blogger and Facebook. I am hoping that by sharing what I am doing new ideas will be born and others will participate either one day or all 25 days. I will use my blog to document my stories and pictures.

It's Fall!

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Thu, 06 Oct 2011 05:09:00 +0000

Fall just so happens to be my favorite time of the year. I love all of the changing colors on the mountains, trees, bushes. I love the cool, crisp morning and the ~~mildly warm afternoons~~ and the late afternoon lightening, thunder and rainstorms.

These photos were taken a couple of weeks ago on a late Sunday afternoon. Somewhere up in the Uinta Mountains.
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Mitchel

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Sun, 18 Sep 2011 04:16:00 +0000

My son is back at his apartment. Yesterday was grueling even though it was his discharge day. When I got to the hospital he was still in a gown. He hadn't showered, shaved or been allowed to clean up at all. I immediately asked the RN on duty if any clothes were brought in by Mitchel's case manager - no was the answer that I rec'd. I did not want to cause a scene because my son is very fragile right now. I let it go. (for the time being)

We drove straight to his therapy appointment which just so happened to be at 2pm. I had been leaving message after message after message with the receptionist, the therapists voice mail, begging his case manager to email his therapist and doctor to keep them in the loop about what was taking place.When Sonja (Mitchel's therapist) finally called him back, I got up too and went back with. Her first comment to Mitchel was, "wow, I don't think I've seen you unshaven for quite a long time" ... We sat down and I didn't say a word. Mitchel still had his hospital bracelets on. Sonja asked Mitch how things were going and Mitchel said "Well, I was suicidal and having some extreme thoughts on Monday so I called the crisis center and they told me I needed to go to the hospital" ... Sonja sat there dumbfounded ... I interrupted and said "Sonja, you didn't KNOW that Mitchel has been in the hospital this entire week??" She said NO.

Again, I didn't want to cause any amount of stress, anxiety, fear, etc for my son so I calmly said "Susan didn't even tell you??" Susan is the receptionist. Her and I spoke at least 4 different times. No. What was alarming to me is the voice mails and the crisis center not sending an ALERT to ALL of Mitchel's providers to let them know about the crisis. I mean, for GOD'S sake, he was having suicidal thoughts and this is something that is new for him to be going through. I'm so angry I could go postal on everyone at Wasatch Mental Health.

I can't allow my son to see me or hear me talking about any of these things that obviously went haywire. I don't know which burns my butt more, the lying case manager who TOLD me she went and got clothes out of Mitchel's apartment and took them to the hospital ... She took NOTHING. She LIED. Or the lack of communication between the crisis line and Mitchel's providers. The case manager has the job to email Mitchel's psychiatrist and therapist. She did neither.

I will be going in on Monday with the PAYEE paperwork in hand. I'm having his PAYEE status changed back over to me. He can still attend their program, but I will pay his bills - and they can give me all of the money that is in reserve, as well. Mitchel says there should be about $1600 in there. I will be requesting a new case manager but before I do that - I will be going to the board of directors with my sons discharge papers in hand. Sonja (therapist) Travis (psychiatrist) both of their names are listed as my sons providers on the discharge papers. Neither were notified.

Back to the session. It was gut wrenching and extremely difficult to not break down ... I held it together but when I got home I basically just cried myself to sleep and didn't wake up until about 2am. My son talked again about how he doesn't fit "in" to society. He's losing time and has not accomplished anything because of the disease has taken over and the voices in his head are telling him he is useless, pathetic and should just die.

His therapist asked him what the voices were telling him to do as far as how to go about suicide and he said the voices that he hears are very loud and they scream a lot - they tell him to blow his head off. Then he looked over at me when he said that and I could tell he had a tear in his eye.

It was rough, it IS rough. I wouldn't wish any of this on anyone ever. Having a child that is going through this every single day , minute and hour of his life ... I just can't even imagine.

The doctor in the hospital put him back on Zoloft along with all of his other medications that he's taking. His injection is due on Friday. I will be very relieved once he receives that. It seems to help out quite a bit for the first week or two.

So that's where we are at. I'm taking care of business, my son and his needs. In general, life pretty much sucks. Sucking the life right out of me. One thing that I believe has been helping my mood a bit is tanning and Vitamin D daily dosage... Just that 15 minutes of resting with the lights makes me feel a lot more energetic. I haven't gone yet today. I just need to pick myself up and go.

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Camping 2011

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Mon, 29 Aug 2011 09:17:00 +0000

Camping 2011 Slideshow: Sherry’s trip from Provo, Utah, United States to Wasatch Range was created by TripAdvisor. See another Wasatch Range slideshow. Create your own stunning free slideshow from your travel photos.

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Ignorant People VS Intelligent People

noreply@blogger.com (Sherry Marie) — Tue, 23 Aug 2011 08:00:00 +0000

It is absolutely impossible to avoid those few ignorant people who just do not 'get it' and continue on with their ignorance. I just had about an hours worth of that on my daughters Facebook Page with her boyfriends EX-In-Laws. Completely and utterly ridiculous. Attacking my daughter for 'status' which said "Oh, I just heard Jason Aldean is coming to SLC, I love Jason Aldean" ... the next thing that pops up is a woman by the name of MerryEllen and she pathetically comments on Megan's status about how she really would have liked to see Sugarland but because they are 'supporting' Chazen (Megan's boyfriends son) they were not able to do so. And then she proceeded to tell Megan to get her priorities straight. So of course my motherly protection came out full force. All I can say is, no wonder they live in Helper, UT.... backwoods idiots.

I ventured out for a little while today. First of all, I went down to the Post Mart to mail Melanie's birthday gift.

After I finished up there I went over to Walmart and picked up some nail polish and some yarn and crochet hook. Just for something to do when I'm bored.

That's about it. I know my life is so incredibly entertaining and you all wish you were me. Hahahaha.

Random Thoughts & Adventures & A Few Tales To Boot

Random Thoughts & Adventures & A Few Tales To Boot

UNDER CONSTRUCTION... Come back soon!!!

My Calendar!

Blogging - Yes, it's been a while!

Letting Go ~

Happy 2012!!

God Be With You Till We Meet Again...

New Year *2012* Resolutions

My Shield of Armor

A Letter of Thanks ... To Me

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas .. I Hope

The Twilight Saga

A Few Items of Interest ...

November 2nd, 2011 Daily Affirmation

November 1st, 2011 ~ Affirmation

Every moment you have a choice, regardless of what has happened before...

Trip to San Diego...

Day 3: Random Acts of Kindness

Day 2: Random Acts of Kindness

Random Acts of Kindness - Day One

25 Days of Random Acts of Kindness

It's Fall!

Mitchel

Camping 2011

Ignorant People VS Intelligent People

New Year 2012 Resolutions